My life, right now, in a nutshell. I'm actively (daily) reading 2 books and am in the middle of a total of 16 (not counting books I have on my Nook). So it's probably not surprising that I work at a book store. Even though it's sort of perfect, since I'm paid to be surrounded by so many books that I'd love to consume while I'm there, I'm looking for more. What that more could possibly be, I don't know.
I consider myself an average writer - I don't really know if I could really make any money writing, period. I'm terrible with grammar (and spelling, also) so it's doubtful I could ever be an editor in any sort of situation. I think I'd enjoy reading books for a living, but how does one get into such a job.
I'm also passionate about traveling. I love learning about new places and people. I also would like to do mission work while traveling. I also like to take pictures of nature in general.
I've been done with college for almost a year now and have only found a part-time job. I live with my mom and step-dad, rent-free. I'm 22.
Am I the only one having trouble at this point in my life? Am I the only one finding it difficult to actively search for a job day-in and day-out? Am I the only one who gets frustrated and down about not hearing from a company after an interview, or hearing that I didn't get the job? Last, but not least, am I the only one who is trying to stay positive and move on to the next thing, but is having a hard time because I have so many dreams that I'm not seeing laid out for me on online-job posting sites?
I really hope it's not just me.
I do feel pretty alone in this though, so if you're in the same boat, I certainly hope you'll let me know and we can row together to paradise.
Really, though. I'm in a place in my life right now where I know it's going to take a lot of hard work to get to where I want to be in life. The problem is, I don't really know for sure where I want to go, hence, I'm not so sure how to get there.
My passion for books would be nice if I thought I'd really be any good at writing book reviews. Or if I had any idea how to get a job reading manuscripts from authors who'd like to be published. Do people with sociology degrees get these jobs easily - I doubt it.
I'd like to travel so I'd like for my job not to tie me down too much, especially a 9-5 gig. I'd like to be free to take pictures, maybe even sell them for profit, though I really don't know if I'm that talented.
Honestly, I'm not sure where I'm going with this post other than...
Because I feel I need some sort of direction in my life, and I think blogging might help, I'm going to commit to writing a post for this blog at least once a week, maybe more. Here are some topics I'm thinking about writing about (maybe it will make me feel more confident about my writing skills..)
Dave Ramsey's Financial Peace University
Gay Marriage
Books, Fiction, Non-Fiction, etc.
Job searching
E-readers/tablets/smart phones, etc.
College life - my experience
Dealing with divorce of parents
Half- and Step Siblings/parents/grandparents
The importance of family
What I've learned about Entreprenuership
I'm sure I'll think of more, but those are the main things I'm thinking about. Basically just writing about what I know, from experiences I've had or from my life in general. If you have a topic you'd like me to write about please let me know, I'd be happy to take requests!
I hope this wasn't too much of a rant for you, it was something I had to write and put out there. I plan to have another post next week or before on one of the topics I listed above so please watch for that. Thanks for reading!!
~ "I believe in ordinary acts of bravery, in the courage that drives one
person to stand up for another." -Divergent by Veronica Roth ~
You're not alone lady, I know it's hard right now but you will make it through it. There is a poem by Rainer Maria Rilke that I found especially inspiring through my season of unemployment: "Unknowing before the heavens of my life, I stand in wonder. O the great stars." This is going to be an incredible time of growth, and I encourage you to find what truly inspires you and strive to learn about yourself during this period. I look back at how stressed, anxious and overwhelmingly frustrated I was for a good part of a year and it seems like such a long way away now because it has all worked out the way it was supposed to. You will get through this time, and you will grow in yourself, and you will be better for it in the end. Find the successes in small things and take time to breathe and remember that this isn't forever. I love the quote by Kate Moller that says, "You won’t do it at the right time. You’ll be late. You’ll be early. You’ll get re-routed. You’ll get delayed. You’ll change your mind. You’ll change your heart. It’s not going to turn out the way you thought it would. It will be better." I'm proud of you for being honest about these difficult emotions, for staying true to what you believe in, and for reading so much! You're an amazing person Brandi, and I can't wait to see the amazing things you will be a part of.
ReplyDeleteHere's what I know, kiddo...you are young. Young and passionate about a lot of different topics. And that is a beautiful thing. You are in search of who you "want to be when you grow up." Some people are lucky in that they know early on where their lives are headed. Others, like me, take their sweet time figuring it out. Heck, Brandi, I'm almost 29 years old and in the same living situation that you are. We are both lucky to have understanding parents who are helping us take the time to find our life's passion. You are headed in a good direction. And you have such a blessed good head on your shoulders. I'm truly honored to call you my surrogate little sister. I'm also insanely proud of the young woman you are. Devote your time to volunteer projects that help propell you in the right direction of your dreams. And, for pete's sake, call me whenever you want. Maybe we can help each other. I love you, kiddo. Stick with it...you'll get there.
ReplyDelete~Mary